*big sigh* Today sucked. Kit has been so mean to me lately and I don't know WHY! I've done nothing wrong, have I? No. And I apologized to him about the papers. But the eraser...that was not my fault! Okay. Well. I did throw it at him. But only because he threw it at me. And I am NOT a SuperBitch. Am I?
Anyhow. Hastings and I are emailing! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! And he just said he loved me. ^^ Could we possibly be getting back together? Woooow. What an idea.
Meh. I feel cold though. Cold and unhappy and depressed and unloved. And since no one reads this, it doesn't even really matter, now does it? Nope. This is why I feel unloved. Because I am. *shakes head* And...being with Alphonse yesterday was horrible. Mostly I've blocked myself off from him and Gazelle, but being around with him and with no one else (Miguel and Frita don't count) was baaaad. It loosened me up. And it hurt. BIG TIME. Like ice clenching my heart and slowly squeezing everytihng out. *shudder* It hurt really bad. And it still does. Even though I'm talking to Hastings! Ugh.
I missed Javier's party this weekend. It makes me feel horrible. He said it was all right...but everyone was talking about it. I feel really bad. And then Kit has to go and call me on it at every moment he can! God. He is an idiot. I hate him right now. I mean...Urggh. Not cool.
I'm feeling so confused. And tired. And hurt and hungry...I hate it. I hate it all. I'm jsut praying, I mean, really, I am! I'm praying that it will all get better. Because I can't stand the road my life is hurtling towards.
And no, I'm not talking about committing suicide, thankyouverymuch. I couldn't ever do something like that.
Byes...And much loves.
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